Time & tonne of bricks moments
I feel like a bit of a fraud. Last blog I wrote about this real sense of joy I’d had post-Molly. This underlying happiness despite it...
Life & death in a day... again
Another baby with an unbalanced chromosome translocation, another little girl incompatible with life - Molly's birth and time with us.
Getting familiar with death
Death’s not something people like to talk about. It’s a subject people often avoid. They’re scared to bring it up for fear of upsetting...
Life & death in a day
The 23rd November is no longer any other day for us. It’s now etched in our calendars as probably the most emotionally epic day of our...
An unusual advent
Russell and I have often talked about what kind of grief hits hardest. Not that you can really compare one situation to another and...
Playing God... again
So a lot changes at the moment, in just a few days. We spent most of the day today at the hospital for a lineup of appointments… scan, midwi
Resorting to 2-year-old tactics
I’ve been on the verge of tears or in tears for a week now. I write, and then you write back, and that’s when I burst. Maybe it’s the...
Making progress: 30 weeks
Things are getting real now. I’m almost 30 weeks pregnant, which means there’s pretty much 7 weeks to go (if things go to Type 1 diabetes...
Finding a balance between hope and reality
There’s this strange space you enter when you’ve been given pretty hard and fast evidence that your baby is not going to live. ...
Sharing not so happy news
In the last few weeks it's felt like life moves on for everyone else, but it’s staying dead still for us. There is no excitement in...